Bangin my head on the desk...

Insanity: doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results. - Albert Einstein

i have been looking at the SAME reports ALL DAY and i'm right where i started off...

Lonely in a room full of people...

i'm really not sure what happened last night... was supposed to be a great night... started out really excited but somewhere that excitement dwindled down to nothing. i feel kinda bad bc my friend that i went out with was trying to get me to dance and have fun. i just couldn't get into it. i just kept looking around at everyone and realized that i felt lonely in a room full of people... i'm finding that i feel like this a lot lately... even with the close friends/family that i have, i feel like i'm all alone at times. nobody truly knows me... my innermost thoughts, feelings, and ponderings have always been just that, innermost... i think that's why i haven't really devoted any time to this blog since starting it. i've always been such a private person. is it possible to be introverted and the center of attention at the same time? i just feel so stuck sometimes...